Myspace...then it spilled over to "stuff"

How do I work my program and get well from my eating disorder when there are ads all over myspace that say: 'Are you 29? You can lose 20lbs in two weeks with this diet!!!' And then there's a photo of a girl's waist holding out her jeans after she lost a bunch of weight. I know that myspace ads are geared to the specific myspace page "owner" because I have listed that I graduated with a degree in Substance Abuse Counseling so there are ads all over my myspace about jobs in that field. I wish there was some way I could control the weight ads though. So many people think that recovering from an eating disorder addiction is so much easier than recovering from a drug or alcohol addiction. I'm not even in the position to compare the two, as I've never had a drug or alcohol addiction, but I do know that recovery from this eating disorder addiction is not easy. In fact, it's much harder than I thought. I thought that since I didn't have either child yesterday until (4pm anyway) that I would go out shopping and get it done because it's so much easier without children. Yes, it's easier, but not when you have an eating disorder. Here I am walking through the mall a little depressed due to last weekend's events (YES, I'm still sad and crying over it, if you can't deal with that, bite me)...anyway, I'm walking through the mall rehashing in my mind exactly what happened last weekend and also the racing thoughts that I HAVE to eat something even though I'm not hungry, and here is this woman trying to throw some lotion sample stuff at me and what do I do? My eating disorder comes right out and looks at the woman and sees her 'flat as a board' stomach and I instantly start crying. I know that I have to learn to deal with this stuff, just as recovering alcoholics and drug addicts do. I mean, the alcohol aisle doesn't just magically disappear from the store when you go shopping and I HAVE to eat or I'll die. But, seeing women that are more thin than I am and that have a flatter stomach than I do trigger my eating disordered thoughts and I want to restrict. I'm 4lbs away from a healthy weight for my height and I don't like it. I was perfectly happy when the scale went below 100lbs...the next challenge became getting to 90lbs. My stupid doctor interrupted that plan. That's okay, my insurance will only cover 3 more weeks of this tx program and then, they have no choice but to discharge me. They're setting me up with an outpatient place that specializes in eating disorders. They have an RN, Psychiatrist, Nutritionist, and a therapist and they all specialize in eating disorders. They'll be much easier to trick than the tx program I'm in now. I mean, they weigh me every day and that's enough to drive your anxiety through the roof and make you want to skip dinner and engage in other eating disordered behaviors that you learned from your peers in the tx program!!! And plans...plans, plans, plans...I've got many of those!