Moody bitch!

Yeah, I went and re read this after I wrote it. If you can't handle vulgar language and if you can't handle my irritability and impatience and rudeness, just skip reading this...because I'm THAT pissed off right now. I just don't give a fucking shit!

I'm a moody bitch tonight. I'm so sick of having to work 60 hour weeks because the system sucks. Andrew's father's payments were reduced from $200 a month to $25 a month because he's too lazy to get a friggen job because he pops opiates all day. Awww, poor Jason...pity the poor little addict. Aww, poor Jason, you're an addict so you don't have to pay ANYTHING towards childcare or health care. I pay $100 a week for Andrew to go to childcare and Jason pays NONE of it because the judge said he doesn't have to because he's a shit ass addict who doesn't know left from right. Nor does the judge care that it's going to cost me $200 every pay period for health insurance coverage...yup, you guessed it. He is excused from paying for that too (because is %200 below poverty level)...know why???? Because, even though I am STILL 200% below poverty level, I make more money than he does. Well, of course I do. Sitting on your ass popping opiates all day generally doesn't bring in a lot of money. And Ashelyn's father...he hasn't seen her since school started in the beginning of SEPTEMBER. He hasn't made a payment in over a month, is $500 in arrears, and won't give me his new address because he KNOWS I NEED it in order to violate him. Child support won't give it to me either because it violated HIS rights. Ex-fucking-cuse me?????????????????? He pays $5 a week towards daycare...well, he is ordered to by the Judge, but he doesn't actually pay it...$5 a friggen week...and there is NO friggen way that he makes more money than I do working 6 days a week, 12 hour shifts each day. So he tells the Judge he only makes $50 a day driving cab...WTF?????????? So, WTF ever. So, I have to work 60 hours a week just so my kids can eat and have what they need and it still isn't enough. Yes, I only make $11 an hour, but, working 60 hours a week and I still can't afford all my bills because it violates Ashelyn's father's rights for them to disclose his address to me? Damn it. So, daddy #2 sits at home and makes sure he has enough money for HIS drug of choice but doesn't give a shit if his daughter has dinner on her plate that night. I know that A LOT of fathers get screwed by the Family Court System, but damn it, this time, I'm doing the right thing and I'M being screwed over because daddy would rather engage and indulge his addictive behaviors and have his mommy and daddy pay his bills so he can continue to afford to buy his opiates off the street. Asshole. Yeah, I'm sensitive to addiction and I understand addiction, but now it can be used as a valid excuse to NOT pay child support????? "Oh, well, we need to make sure that you feed your addiction even though your kid may have to eat at the neighbor's house tonight because there's not enough food on the damn table...but you got your opiates and you got YOUR drug of choice so it's all good." Fuck you. Fuck the Judge. Fuck Family Court. And FUCK the system. Fuck New York state and their damn regulations. Yeah, my making $22,800 a year is a shitload of fucking money. So, who cares if I NEVER see my children or don't get to have a life because I am FORCED to work 20 hours of overtime a week, as long as the addict has what he needs...the Judge is happy, daddies are happy...and mommy is fucking beat up, burnt out, pissed off, tired, exhausted, and about ready to give the fuck up on everything. Yep, EVERYTHING! I don't even have an opportunity to have any kind of life because I always have to work because nobody can get off their ass OR their drug...fuck it all. I can't take this shit anymore. I give the fuck up.