1st Day

I had my first day in the ED program. Got yelled at in front of other clients for not eating all of my lunch. You have to eat EVERY bite or you get in trouble (and I'm not exaggerating when I say EVERY*). This is something the Counselor could have handled in private and not in front of other clients. It was my first day, give me a break...it physically HURTS for food to be in my stomach. And when I planned my menu with the dietician, I asked for water. She told me that no one in the ED program was allowed water at meals, only milk and then I get the the room (which is a room, not the cafeteria) one of the other girls was given a bottle of water...no milk. All the ED people sit and eat together. I'm not used to sitting in "that" chair. I'm used to sitting in the chair of the Counselor, running the group and providing the therapy. And when I participated in the DBT group the Counselor was blown away and said, "Wow, this isn't your first time with DBT is it?" I told her, "No, it isn't. Up until two days ago I was a drug addiction counselor and a counselor for young girls". And to further my shame, one of my former substance abuse clients was in one of my groups @@. WONDERFUL!