Prayer

There this country song that I like called "I Saw God Today" by George Strait. Here are the lyrics:

I SAW GOD TODAY

Just walked down the street to the coffee shop. Had to take a break.

I've been by her side for 18 hours straight. Saw a flower growing in the middle of a sidewalk. Pushing up through the concrete. Like it was planted right there for me to see.

The flashing lights, the honking horns. All seemed to fade away. In the shadow of that hospital at 5:08. I saw God today.

Chorus:I've been to church, I've read the book. I know he's here but I don't look.

Near as often as I should (Yeah I know I should). His fingerprints are everywhere.

I just slowed down to stop and stare. Opened my eyes and man I swear, I saw God today.

Saw a couple walking by. They were holding hands. Man she had that glow.

Yeah I couldn't help but notice she was starting to show. Stood there for a minute taking in the sky. Lost in that sunset. A splash of amber melted into shades of red.

Chorus:I've been to church, I've read the book. I know he's here but I don't look.

Near as often as I should (Yeah I know I should). His fingerprints are everywhere.

I just slowed down to stop and stare. Opened my eyes and man I swear, I saw God today.

Got my face pressed up against the nursery glass. She's sleeping like a rock, my name on her wrist wearing tiny pink socks. She's got my nose, she's got her mamas eyes.

My brand new baby girl. She's a miracle. I saw God today.

Anyway, I guess most people treat prayer as a private thing and in my opinion (the wonderful thing about not believing in ORGANIZED religions) each prayer is different, as is each person that prays. In my opinion, there are prayers that are private and there are prayers that I don't mind "sharing". Once again, my beliefs in this are the same. If you don't like my personal beliefs, that is not my problem. It's yours. Please do not push your beliefs on me and I won't push mine on you, but this IS my personal blog so I can post as I wish and if you're offended, I DO apologize, but think twice before reading my blog again if you ARE offended. This was the prayer I said last night before I lie down to sleep.

Dear Lord, I am going to try very hard to open myself up to your presence because I want so badly to believe that those other "happenings" were you and I know we aren't supposed to test you Lord, but, like mom said the other night...I want to see the last 29 and almost 8 months of what my footprints look like, and seethe times when you were actually carrying me...Are you carrying me now Lord? If not, can I please lean on you until I can feel confident enough to walk alone but WITH you? In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

This morning I found $20 in the pocket of a pair of jeans that I NEVER wear. The only time I wear them is as a last resort when I need to do laundry. They have holes in them and they're in horrible condition. Also, I've been e-mail arguing back and forth with some jerk who took my money from an American Express gift card for an e-bay purchase but never sent the items. After arguing for days, with him so set against refunding my money, out of the blue this morning I get an e-mail from him saying that he has refunded my money! So, God, I've seen you today...keep showing your fingerprints, I like them!