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I deal with my emotions in two ways. I write about them or I go to sleep so I don't have to feel them. I'm sick of being told how I should feel and when I should feel it. When the emotion hits, it hits. When I'm at work, I can deal with it. If I ever come across a time that I can't deal it, I will remove myself and go into the bathroom until I can deal with it. When I go to work, my problems get dropped at the door, when I walk in. I cry my tears when I'm alone. So, no one needs to tell me WHEN and HOW to deal with my feelings and emotions. And to tell me NOT to cry in front of my kids over my grandmother's death is pure bullshit. They need to know that it's healthy to cry and that it's healthy to "feel". Sometimes I DO cry in front my kids, but most of the time, I cry alone. There is no need to be concerned about me. I'm not worth the time you spend worrying and being concerned. You have better things to do with your life than worry about me. I'm fine. And I'll deal with my grief any way that I want to!!!