About Me

Hi, my name is Michelle. I'm a single mother to Andrew (10) and Ashelyn (6). I completed college in December of 2007 obtaining a degree in Chemical Dependency Counseling. I'm currently in a very new relationship with a wonderful man. My goal is to go back to college and earn my Bachelor's in Social Work; possibly my Master's. I would also love to get my CASAC (credentialed Alcoholism and Substance Abuse Counselor) someday. I'm discovering a new happiness in my life and the only thing I'm waiting for is to find a job so I can continue my career. I love my field of work and enjoy every minute of it. The rest you can find on my "complete profile". Any questions, feel free to ask :-)

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Friday, November 7, 2008

MY "bottom"

"Hitting Bottom" doesn't have to apply to just alcoholics and drug addicts. I am neither one of those, but I've just realized that I've hit MY bottom. I've had enough; more than I can handle. I'm sick of the tears everyday. And it's just too overwhelming to even try to figure out where to start on making things better. I gave it an honest shot, things looked up for a while and now, things are worse than they've ever been. I don't even know which issue to begin to try to fix so I'm just not going to fix any of them. I'm just going to give up on all of them. I'm done. I can't take it anymore and I'm giving up. Take it whatever way you wish, I don't care, but I've reached my breaking point and now everything is just too broken to be fixed. I'm done. I just can't take anymore...of anything...you can say I'm taking the easy way out, you can say I'm a quitter, you can say I'm a wimp, you can say anything you want. Like I said, at this point, I just don't care anymore. I'm done with it all. My grandmother's dead and dead means she isn't coming back. One person can only take so much. I'm out.

1 comment:

Dani said...

"They" say things have to get worse before they get better. Maybe now things will start getting better.

Sorry, that's the optimist in me coming out again.