About Me

Hi, my name is Michelle. I'm a single mother to Andrew (10) and Ashelyn (6). I completed college in December of 2007 obtaining a degree in Chemical Dependency Counseling. I'm currently in a very new relationship with a wonderful man. My goal is to go back to college and earn my Bachelor's in Social Work; possibly my Master's. I would also love to get my CASAC (credentialed Alcoholism and Substance Abuse Counselor) someday. I'm discovering a new happiness in my life and the only thing I'm waiting for is to find a job so I can continue my career. I love my field of work and enjoy every minute of it. The rest you can find on my "complete profile". Any questions, feel free to ask :-)

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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Harder than I thought

I'm trying really hard at this happiness thing I'm trying to achieve. Goodness...I know it doesn't happen overnight, but I'm stuck in a rut of depression and I can't get out of it. I constantly think of the things that are upsetting me and no matter how hard I try to "give them to God", it just doesn't work...probably because I don't know how to "give things to God". Sure, it seems easy enough...or it did when my dad and step mom talked about it, but, I've tried to "give it to God" but I still have the racing thoughts. I try to think, "These are things I have no control over so stop worrying about them, stop obsessing" but it just isn't coming that easy and the more I try, the more frustrated I get. I've been awake since 1:30am this morning. I've kept myself busy cleaning and doing laundry. I guess that's a good thing about not sleeping, but I'm getting damn tired (no pun intended) of not being able to sleep. The kids fight all the time and it's come to the point where I have lost control over them and I don't know what to do. PLEASE...ANY advice about achieving happiness, ending these racing thoughts, giving things to God, or regaining control of my children would be appreciated. I'm desperate.

1 comment:

Dani said...

I don't have any good advice...but I do know that once you are able to "give them to God" everything else will fall into place.

As soon as you stop thinking about and stressing about things you can't do anything about, you have a clearer mind and everything else will just work out.